Cakap Awam?

okay. title? actually its public speaking. a couple of weeks ago lah kan, tcher mai kat ak. 'adib2, nk masuk tak public speaking?'. ak pum, 'okelah tcher. i'll try'. a shot of adrenaline flow in my body. smangat nih. tup tap tup tap, 2 weeks past. tcher ckap tanding minggu satu tu. then, smpai arini, xdok brite. ak pun hilang lah semangat.
dlm klas pulak, suruh ak cakap awam kat depan. but, i dont want. ak mmg dah hafal skit. tp, ak dah takde semangat. termasuk pulak, ade beberape makhluk tuhan yg over. ckp ak dok bertanggungjawab lah. hok ak dokleh bla skali, kate ak sembang brapi, cakap sedak. perghh. hahaha. hey geng, meh ak nk kabo siket. umah ak bukan mcm umah kau. otak ak bukan mcm otak kau. and, hidup ak pun bukan mcm hidup kau.
reality is, people have problems. you have yours and i have mine. we all have our own 'unique' problems. and, u just know my name, not my story. bak kate aleena lah kan.
so, jgn pakse aku. k, bai.